Confession Time

Hello fellow faith walkers, it’s been a while since I’ve posted anything on Out The Boat. When I started this blog my goal was to be an encouragement to people who were taking leaps of faith and jumping out the boat to do whatever God has called them to do. I have to be honest that lately I haven’t felt very encouraged myself so I haven’t posted anything.

I was tired of jumping out the boat, sinking, then jumping back in…over and over again. I was tired of feeling like I was praying to a brick wall when I could have been spending time catching up on Game of Thrones before the new season starts. I was tired of watching everyone else’s prayers get answered while I still waited. Yes, I’ve been having a selfish moment. Who am I to question God’s timing? I am nothing but a little grey worm (shout out to my fellow GOT fans).

The truth is God answers my prayers every single day that I wake up in my right mind. God knows what obstacles I’m facing and He always makes a way. He always provides for my needs. There are just some things that I have to wait a bit longer before I see them manifested in my life.  God can not be rushed so I have no choice but to be patient because I want the best He has for me.

Another thing I realized is that sometimes the best way to encourage others is to let them know they are not alone in their struggles. I feel as if I’ve failed my fellow faith walkers by only writing when I feel like it or when I feel strong. The truth is that sometimes I need encouraging too. I have days when I don’t feel like I’m worthy of my calling and there are some days I feel like giving up but I know that I’m not the only one. So, I promise I’ll do better posting regularly.

You all keep praying for me…I’m praying for you. God Bless!

 

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Second Guessing

After so many rejections, you can start to second guess yourself. You start wondering if you really were called by God. Maybe it was just my overactive imagination. I should probably quit now and just be content with my grown up job and let go of these childish dreams. It’s when these thoughts fill your mind that you have to force yourself to keep going.

You’re not really second guessing yourself, you’re second guessing God. If He has called you to do something and you have repeatedly received confirmation that you have been called to do it, don’t sabotage your future by doubting. Rejection will come but that doesn’t mean that it’s the end. It only means God has something better planned. Once He opens the door no man will be able to close it.

Now, get up, dust yourself off and keep doing what you know you were called to do.

“For though the righteous fall seven times, they rise again.” Proverbs 24:16 NIV

WHOSE GLORY?

I’ve noticed lately, that when my work is rejected or if I don’t get a lot of views and comments on my blog, I get discouraged and depressed for days. It’s as if my joy is linked to what others think of me. Of course, I want people to read and enjoy my work, if no one reads it then what’s the point, right?

I know God has called me to be a writer. Writing isn’t a gift that is meant to keep to myself. I just assumed that if God called me to do it that I would be spectacular at it. After all, I’m created in His image and God is far from mediocre. So when my work is rejected I feel as if I’m not only letting myself down but I’m letting God down too. It’s like I’m not truly using the talent that He entrusted me with.

Well, after a nice long pity party, the Lord posed a question to me. “If you never receive one cent for your work or never receive any rewards and praise, would you still do what I called you to do and would you do it as passionately?”

Before I realized how much work, time, criticism, heartache and sacrifice was involved in doing what God called me to do, I would have said yes in a heartbeat but now this question gives me pause. I realize that answering this question reveals where my heart truly is. It lets me know who I’m really doing this for. Is it for my glory or God’s?

Our words are so precious, in them is the power of life and death. As writers we have a very powerful gift and weapon at our fingertips. Our words can potentially reach millions of people. If you’re a Christian writer this a huge responsibility. My reason for writing can not be for my glory. It has to be for God’s glory only. When I get to the finish line, I want to hear Him say, “well done, my good and faithful servant.”

“If anyone serves, they should do so with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ. To him be the glory and the power for ever and ever. Amen.” 1 Peter 4:11 NIV

Missing

When I decided that I wanted to write, I didn’t realize it was a call from God. I didn’t even consider consulting Him on what I should write. I just wanted to write stories that were entertaining. I planned on being on the New York Bestseller List, make millions of dollars and have my books turned into Oscar nominated movies. Nope, I wasn’t expecting much at all.

I wrote my short stories and submitted them to several publications and writing contests and sat back and waited for the acceptance letters to roll in. What actually rolled in was one rejection letter after another. I became frustrated and discouraged. How could this be happening, I thought. All my friends loved my stories.

In my heartbreak, I finally got some sense and asked God what I should do. We can never leave God out of our plans, no matter what they are. God doesn’t want to be a part of our lives just on Sundays, He wants to be included in every facet of our lives. Once I realized that God was missing from my plans, I repented and I eventually received clarity. I allowed Him to direct my path and that’s when the real adventure began.

“Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails.” Proverbs 19:21 NIV