Just Me

“I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; I know that full well.” Psalm 139:14 NIV

When I started (and up until the moment I wrote this) thought that I had to be the perfect writer. I thought I had to write as many stories and books as James Patterson and my words had to beautifully flow and be as meaningful as Maya Angelou. what’s the point of doing what I do if I’m not the best? If I’m not the best, who is going to want to read my work? If no one reads my work then how will I become the next Shonda Rhimes? Wouldn’t I be a failure if I’m not the best?

Fortunately, I was reminded that God doesn’t expect me to be James Patterson, Maya Angelou or Shonda Rhimes. He wants me to be me. He knew who I was and who I  would become before He created me in my mother’s womb. He’s the one that called me to write. He loves me and all my geeky weirdness. He knows all of my insecurities and flaws yet He still chose me to encourage people through my writing. I don’t understand it and sometimes I feel unworthy of this call but nevertheless, I will do it. I will trust Him to guide me and help me through my journey.

My success isn’t based on how many books or short stories I sell. It’s not based on how many views my blog gets and it’s not based on how many people follow me on Facebook and Twitter. Success, in God’s eyes, is based on whether or not I have done what He has called me to do.

“You are my servant; I have chosen you and not rejected you. So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:9-10 NIV

CALLED

I didn’t always want to be a writer. In fact, being a writer was the last thing I thought I would do. I always had a heart to help and encourage others but I just didn’t know how I was going to go about it. When I started writing it was just to help my coworkers get through a stressful day, working in a call center. I never dreamed that it was something that God was actually calling me to do.

Eventually, what started out as a way to entertain people, turned into an assignment from God to encourage and share His love. I love writing but I didn’t see myself becoming a “Christian” writer. My writing tends to be a bit more serious, some might even say it’s a bit on the darker side. I thought God made a mistake. How was I supposed to write for God’s people when I’m such a mess? Then the Lord reminded me of this scripture, “it is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick. I have not come to call the righteous but sinners to repentance.” Luke 5:31-32 NIV

I knew that the Lord was telling me that it was ok to write about real situations. Sometimes, life is messy for believers and nonbelievers alike. My job as a writer is to remind the believers that God is still there and to let the unbelievers know that God is real and He loves them. Everyone needs to know that God loves them and He is mightier than any problem they are facing. More importantly, God wants to help and He’s waiting on us to call on Him.

The decision to write for God has been a struggle. I know this is a huge responsibility and I know that I may experience persecution and rejection but I keep on writing. I know that when God calls us to do something it is because there is a need that needs to be filled. We are God’s body-His hands, feet and mouth on earth. Life isn’t about glorifying ourselves but to glorify God.

I’m writing this blog to encourage all the Christian writers who have answered God’s call. What you do is important. I know it’s hard but be encouraged.

“‘For I know the plans I have for you,’ declares the Lord, ‘plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'” Jeremiah 29:11